Ever since I was a small child I was afraid of airplanes and ships on the ocean floor. I remember when I woke up my father (the biological one Mom divorced a few years later) and asked him if there were planes on bottom of the ocean. I don’t remember what he said, but I have had that fear all my life. Just the thought of planes and anything else that shouldn’t be on the ocean floor made me sick to my stomach.
Interestingly, at various stages of my life, I went to empaths and such to try and figure out why I had this fear. Strangely (or perhaps not that strange) enough each and every one told me that I had been a pilot in another life and had crashed my plane into the ocean during a war. I still don’t know if I believe that, but it’s something to think about. But my fears never went away.
That is, until I went to Hawaii (specifically, Oahu) last year. I had wonderful tours every other day, and my first one was Pearl Harbor. After watching an amazing and thought-provoking (and sad) video of that time, we all went on boats to go out to the memorial. Unfortunately, it was being worked on so we couldn’t walk out there, but our boat circled around it so that we could stop and look down at the USS Arizona.
At that moment I felt queasy and scared, but I had told myself earlier that, come what may, I was not going to be afraid anymore and I was going to LOOK down at the USS Arizona. I took a deep breath, and I looked down at this heroic ship lying in place on the ocean floor.
At that moment all I could feel was deep sorrow for all these brave men who went down together; brothers in arms to the end. At that moment I felt both sad and honored to have had the precious opportunity to view this heroic ship. Without thinking, I said a prayer for the lives of those who died and all the sacrifices made.
Ever since that day I have not been afraid of boats or ships or planes or trains under the water. In fact, these days there is a great program now called “*Draining the Oceans.” It lets you see what is exactly on the ocean floor all over the world. I have found that watching this has been an eye-opener for me, but best of all, I have no fear when I watch it. Although “Draining the Oceans” is amazing to watch, in my mind I always go back to looking down on the USS Arizona. How it has changed my views and my life!
If you have the chance to visit Oahu, please do not miss going to Pearl Harbor. It’s a trip you will never forget. Just speaking for myself, seeing the USS Arizona resting on the ocean floor in Hawaii is my best and most treasured memory.